Random Goddess Chat
A little heads up musing!
The future isn’t that far away puppets!
Well actually it is several months away since this will not take effect until January 2018, but I figure I might as well throw it out there for you.
I am tightening up my Realm a little bit and adjusting how I do things. That means that things which no longer benefit me, support my travels, or keep me feeling motivated to create are slowly being phased out. For the last several months now I have been keeping a close eye on statistics pertaining to my business. Where do I put more work in then I am reaping the rewards? Where is traffic just dying out? Where is a big old Vortex of my time just being sucked away from me, with no returns?
So far I have identified 3 of the culprits that are at the top of that list of “joy robbers” for me. Truth be told, I have also identified some of the mistakes I have been making or should I say where my personality simply clashes with what it is some of you are looking for. It holds true as well in reverse. It’s a big mix up and jumble, which I am going to slowly fix as the weeks and months go by.
One of the things that will be going by the wayside in January 2018 is this blog. Yes, www.paymepiggy.com will not be renewed by me when the time comes. The Domain Name just no longer fits with what it is I am doing, and even so I am still active in Financial Domination and Fetish, the extend to which I am involving myself in it with just the “masses” has been at an all time minimum now.
I have a few devoted casual pets who enjoy my greedy nature and love the feeling of having their money accepted by me in a hot for both of us interaction, but there are just not enough new cash pets or pay piggies who are sincere in their desire to do more then just talk about being of any kind of financial value and support to me.
I am not planning on writing any further educational books on Financial Domination / Fetish either. As far as I am concerned I did my part back when I spent days attempting to share what I learned from experience. To me, that particular Chapter is closed and I am moving on from it. Besides as so many have pointed out now on the Internet, these days there is enough information available for free. You can do your research and find it, or pay one of the suddenly 100’s of women who give online courses on how to “rinse the cash right out of the mans wallets’. *Chuckles*
The thing is PayMePiggy was originally my financial domination only blog, then it went into Hiatus for a while, before I thought I’d give it another revision and bring it back. It just really didn’t bring me the joy I thought it would, and even I realize that I am not really feeling generous enough any longer to give tons of free jerk off material to guys who are not one bit appreciative.
No that wasn’t slapping you for it boys. I actually don’t even blame you all that much on it. You have gotten conditioned over the years now that all you have to do is make demands and things will be just handed to you for a couple of bucks. The scene has changed into a stroking of the entitlement of those who should be bending backwards to gain attention and pleasing the Ladies who are on top. That has stopped being the case years ago now, and this is the fallout. It’s just part of the whole evolution, and it will take years upon years to change that back. Anytime you make it that easy on guys, they’ll take it and naturally run with it. It’s just human nature.
As far as PayMePiggy goes so, it just no longer fits and doesn’t lead you to where you need to go in order for both sides to have a happy ending. So I am going to let it run it’s course and then allow it to retire in good grace.
Does that mean I am retiring? That really depends on what you are asking me what I am retiring from.
Fact is that I have semi-retired from a lot of things over the last few years already. Doing real time Pro-Domination sessions was one of the things I semi-retired from and these days I rarely even offer the opportunities any longer. Traveling and just the overall attitude these days is just not conducive to it. I am still taking the occasional appointment here and there with gentlemen subs I know, but I haven’t accepted a new to me submissive or fetish client for a real time session in a while. I am just not willing to deal with the twisted idea of what they think it is going to be. It stopped being fun for me because of that, and so it came to an end.
Online Sessions – Webcam Domination Sessions – are something I already only do very sporadically again due to my traveling and the internet not always being good enough to even offer it. I no longer have my dungeon and / or office which I used to do them out of and sadly it seems that so many of you need that visual illusion rather then worrying about being obedient and amusing during the Session. Again I have a handful of fun boys and sissies I play with via Webcam sessions, but those are into ME as their Goddess and simply enjoy being under my control. They couldn’t care less what my background looks like or what I am dressed like either. To them it’s unimportant and we enjoy our interactions. The rest so, well that is becoming less and less as I said, and I am sorry darlings, but I have to enjoy it to offer it. When it becomes annoying, it stops being fun.
Phone Domination – Oh I am still available for that every day for at least a few hours, but and here is the shocker, there are going to be some changes on it coming soon as well. Phone Fetish and what you’d might call Life Coaching – counseling and simply just talking to my callers about their fetishes and kinky desires, is really more and more what I have been doing for some time now. I am actually thinking of branching out a little bit with it and offering a few more non-fetish vanilla based things soon. The irony of it almost feeling more kinky to me then the kinky stuff is not lost on me either here. Chuckles. I just haven’t figured out yet what exactly I am willing and comfortable with doing. So as far as Phone sex – fetish – domination – chat goes, that will change but expand into other directions more. We’ll have to see how that works out in the long run.
My writing and blogging, my sharing of stories that I write, and in general my sharing of myself in so many ways is going to be moved to my patreon page where those who actually are willing and able to be financially supportive can enjoy it. I figure that I have given enough for free for way too long, an honestly free is always taken for granted. I left opportunity after opportunity for you to step up and show your financial support for me, but besides again a tiny handful that just went ignored. In other words there has been too much taking from your end and not enough giving. That will need to end and the only way I can make it end is by removing the option. So if you enjoy my writing, then I am sure you can afford as little as $5.00 a months and up to get your indulgence, if not there are plenty of free blogs on the internet you can enjoy
I am sorry, but I do need to make certain that I have the income I need to continue on with my travels and enjoy a reasonable lifestyle as well. The only blog that will remain free to read is my totally vanilla blog www.flawedtreasures.com.
www.femdomfetishcontentforsale.com remains of course and will continue to be my new content announcement blog. That is where you find everything I have for sell, and as my writing of fetish, femdom and erotic fiction as well as my paranormal stories will be placed on Patreon which essentially becomes my Membership Site for my written content and blog, I will need to redo it one more time and remove all the stories from it.
The way I am seeing my content creation and sales future at the moment is that you’ll find a limited new amount of Audio Recordings and maybe some older Photo Packs of mine on Niteflirt, with the Lions Share of Audios and when I film Clips going to my various Clips4Sale Studios, since this seems to be place where they actually sell.
The thing is that more and more I have to take a hard look at things in a more selfish way. Things have just changed to the point that unless you almost force people to do something to gain the things they want, they will just take the mile without even considering that the provider of that content has expenses too. That pretty much forces you into going 150% business oriented and doing less for free or just the fun of it.
I don’t like it, let me say that clearly. I would much prefer to be able to have fun with you and know that you’ll not just take me for granted, but as I said so many times now – “Lesson learned!”
With that, PayMePiggy becomes increasingly obsolete, and I figure those who actually enjoy supporting my creative productions, love knowing that they are making a valuable and much appreciated contribution to my life, and / or don’t mind paying for something they enjoy, will be just as happy if not perhaps happier utilizing the other options from here on out.
Oh and updates here will now be once every two weeks. Frequent updates will be on Patreon instead, you might as well start getting used to it. Think of it as joining my Team and Family of supportive fans, friends, puppets, submissive adorers and more. How fun, and a lot closer to the way it used to be! Make your Pledge, pay it and enjoy.
Goddess Bella Donna
Hurray – It’s finger flipping good!
What the fuck moment FAQ Time!
Oh look, the bird is flying free! A rare moment in the life of Goddess Bella Donna, and for this special occasion I even put on my blond wig!
Why? Because when you ask me these types of questions I have to assume you are having a “blond moment” I need to prepare to speak your language!
No the first question is not – Do I look pretty in this Mistress? Even so, yes I have seen something rather similar to that before and couldn’t stop laughing.
Ok let’s get started:
Q: Have you ever had sex with a man that didn’t have a big cock?
A: OMG, really? What do you think? Duh! It’s not like I really sent a sissy or faggot out to audition and test drive every lovers dick I ever had. You know what, it’s a real crap shoot isn’t it? Sometimes you get lucky and the guy is well endowed (doesn’t mean he can fuck worth shit, but you didn’t ask about that did you?) and sometimes the guy is average.
For some reason I have never thought of taking a measuring tape with me and demand that they drop their pants for a full frontal dick measuring at it’s most aroused in my normal everyday vanilla life.
Q: Do you ever have normal sex?
A: Define “normal”! If you are asking me if I am always running around with a big fat strapon attached to me, screaming Geronimo before I wrestle a willing or even unsuspecting sissy or male to the ground and have my wicked FemDom ways with you…. NO! NO, I hate to disappoint you, I don’t. If you are asking me if I am always tying my lovers up in a contraption of some sort, then straddle them and force them to sing the National Anthem, while flogging their balls like a Windmill gone wild…. No! No, sorry not doing that either. If you are asking me, if I make my lovers reside the 13 positions of submission, while I shove my wet cunt into their face and force them to almost drown in my juices, while singing “amazing grace” sounding like Minnie Mouse…. nope haven’t done that either lately. If you are asking me if I am working my way through the Kama Sutra while getting inspiration for further positions of some Porno hub or other, while contemplating my superiority over the male species…. nope, not that one either. Ok, let’s make it easy. YES – I do have vanilla – normal – none-kinky – none-Fetish – none-FemDom sex and guess what sugar plum, I’ll never have it with you!
Q: So you are bi sexual right? Have you ever made advances on a straight woman and got rejected?
A: Ok, I get it you lust driven Ape left over from the Neanderthal age, you think that being bi-sexual means that we just can’t resist chasing after everything that moves and that it is code for will fuck anything that comes along… BUT No, I have never made advances on a straight woman, because by the very nature of her being straight it means that she is not interested in having sex with me. Honestly, I wouldn’t want to have sex with her either, because yeah I am not into awkward moments of helping her discover her inner Goddess from the planet lesbo. Got that? Oh and if I ever was foolish enough to hit up on a straight woman, then I would expect to be rejected. It’s that age old thing of – don’t go there fool! That entrance is closed!
Q: How does it feel like having sex with a fat chick?
A: On this one I really just couldn’t help myself. I am sorry, but that is just begging to be made fun of. So here goes. Having sex with a fat chick feels like diving into the most delicious jiggly bowl of pudding – color apparently determines the flavor here – and then slowly being sucked into the black vortex of her cunt. Because we all know that fat chicks have a black hole for a pussy and if you get anywhere near it with your scrawny ass and tiny dick, you’ll get swallowed up whole and are never heard of again. Hope that helped. (Note – I have no idea what it feels like having sex as a guy with a big woman, I am not a guy and I don’t fuck chicks .. I make love to women! Size varies!)
Q: Are you dominant all the time and do you always see guys like losers?
A: Let’s address the loser question first. Nope I reserve that purely for you and those of your ilk who seriously have been drinking too much of their own Kool-Aid again. As to the 24/7/365 being dominant and never having a regular moment to just be all the other 1000 aspects of my being…… Surprisingly there are those rare moments in my life when I don’t run around snapping a whip at every living life form and that has the good fortune to run across my path. Once in a great while I even sit back and indulge in that little thing called being a totally typical woman who doesn’t want to put up with some guys needs and constant demands to be controlled, but want to enjoy regular companionship with someone I consider at least in part equal to me. Oh and I even allow my partner and family members to go to the bathroom without feeling the overwhelming urge to make them beg for permission first and kiss my ass while screaming “LICK HARDER YOU LOSER!” Sorry to disappoint!
Q: Are you a natural dominant woman?
A: NO!!! I am a fake plastic Alien life-form from the planet Uranus who came to planet Earth 47 years ago and somehow managed to fool everyone. By the way, if you look real closely you’ll notice the various holes in my body that allows me to attach sexual toys to them in order to fit your sexual preferences at the moment best. I come fully equipped with voice modular, coin operated slots for you to deposit your money into, and if you pay close attention you can push various buttons to get the results you want. Oh, and my favorite thing … I have a GET THE FUCK OUT MY SITE YOU DIPSHIT – kick that for some reason always wants to catapult you out of my window. Have a nice day.
Q: Have you ever had sex with animals?
A: (By the way that was a real question!) Are you offering yourself up? BLOCKED!
Q: How many slaves travel with you and how is your dungeon stocked?
A: Ok, I’ll be nice about this one, but seriously do you read? I live and travel in a 32ft RV. Can you guess how many slaves go on the road with me? Try NONE! And the last time I checked it’s an RV not a traveling Dungeon. Now please go back to the rock you just crawled out from under.
….. and here is the expression those people might have after receiving my answers.
YOU MEAN …… oh god no…. you are a normal everyday person?
You can’t be a normal everyday person, with a normal life, regular hobbies, interests…. that just not sexy! You exist just to arouse ME … it’s all about ME ME ME – Mistress!
Signed a devoted slave!
Ok, on that note… moving on now. Have a nice day all.
Goddess Bella Donna
Being in the sex industry and being labeled as a sex worker no matter which category isn’t always easy for those of us who are in it. I am extremely lucky to be comfortable with who I am and what it is I do. Considering how I live my life as a full time RVer it becomes essentially that I can tell people what I do so they don’t walk into rather embarrassing situations with me.
I have been asked over and over again, how I tell complete strangers or people who are just getting to know me what I do for a living and how they react to it. Well here is my answer for everyone to listen to. It may surprise you just how easy it really is for me, but as I said, I am completely comfortable with who I am and what I do. As you’ll hear here shortly it shows and people react to that.
So this is for all of you who are looking from the outside in, who are clients of mine and of course fellow people in the sex industry.
Today’s personal for me Question is….
A moment of uncensored musing out loud!
One of the Rules for online domination and financial fetish / domination involved women is to keep things always positive, to make it appear as if you have no worries, to always be sexy and to never admit when something is really ticking you off or bothering you, because well we all know that just shrivels up those erections and those erections are what lead to guys spending money on us and getting off. (Phew that was a long run on sentence! Oh well …)
Call me a Rebel, but what the fuck! Seriously, what the bloody hell! Why do I have to pretend anything and try to not really cater but feed an inhuman and almost mechanical coin operated illusion of myself to guys who in reality couldn’t give two flying shits about me anyways? Tell me that! Someone explain to me where that logic is coming from and how in the end it will really make a difference, because guess what those type of jerk off artists won’t be reading what I have to say anyways. They only read self-patting, over the top sexualized, I am so fucking perfect and hot posts anyways, because that is what those morons jerk off to. So what am I actually losing here by being myself and saying what I think, is going on, venting to make myself feel better etc? NOTHING! Not a freaking dime! They are jerking off anyways to someone elses freebies, and have no intention on spending a penny on me or anyone else.
Between us girls, because yeah I am aware that is mostly other women who read blogs that aren’t all about the male wee wee and how to arouse it in 1 easy step (go ahead figure it out), it gets exhausting, annoying and down right anti-enticing. Admit it, most of the time you are sitting in front of your own blogs (if you have them) and groan because you don’t even know what to write anymore, because you are so bored and tired with giving those guys everything for free in hopes that they might (and that is a big maybe) feel cajoled into dropping a couple of bucks on you. Doesn’t feel like you are manipulating them anymore does it? Feels more like they are manipulating you and if you are a Top, an alpha female, a Domina by any other name it stings and stinks, but let’s face it you are a Professional and you have bills to pay.
Oopsy, did I just say a bad phrase? “You have bills to pay!” Eek, sorry I know you don’t have bills to pay, all of your little puppets and paypigs are paying your bills 100% of the time all the time and you aren’t working your adorable little Tail Feathers off to get the money to survive on. BULLSHIT!
We work and we work a lot of hours, do a lot of different things like take Phone calls, film clips, do Webcam Sessions, interact with often times freebie seekers and the occasional sincere Fetish boy and if you are lucky enough to have some actually loyal subs who know their place with you and do their part train and interact with them. It’s a full time fucking job and requires more hours then most 9 to 5 jobs out there, plus many of you gals have those on top of it too.
My Goddess, Heavens above and Hades below, half of the time it’s one ungrateful job too, because no matter how much you do and give to those online weasels who dangle the carrots in front of you, they still always demand more for free. Why? Because there are plenty of women who are still finding their way and are just throwing it at them by the bucket full. Those guys don’t have to spend money any longer, because they have it just thrown at them for free. It’s disgusting and I am not just talking about nudity here, but in general.
“Send me your Femdom Pics and I will retweet them for free to all of my followers!” “I serve superior females by offering them retweet services (but only if they are hot and put out lots of jerk off pics)”. “I am a firm believer of female supremacy. (But I only serve those who give me what I want and my service to them exists of jerking off and pretending to actually be a slave which I am the furthest thing from. Oh and Findomme may not apply!). “I am such a good little sissy sucking cock for my mistress(es) see? (Enter self-serving picture of some dude in girly clothing spreading his ass and sucking cock, but can’t bother to do a single other damn thing for a woman, because well he’s just a sissy bimbo right?)
Damn, I could go on and on about all the hypocritical, ironic, self-serving BS Tweets we see all day long and not a single one of them has anything actually to do with being a bottom, submissive, a slave or even a financially supportive fan. It’s all just a bunch of self-serving shyte that I (maybe you too) would love to reach through the screen at times and grab the person around the throat and throttle them – free of charge.
Now I know you are of course all multi-millionaires in the making and you don’t need the money, you just do it for the love of enticing men to jerk off to you (*cough cough*) and of course having thousands of guys with teeny tiny weiners do the two finger jerk off to your glory empowers your femininity, but sorry I am not one of them. You can keep your illusions intact for them, I have already broken so many of the unspoken BS Rules of keeping the Illusions alive over the years I might as well keep going. EVIL LAUGH!
Guess what this Boss Bitch – as in being my own Boss here – when I do anything it’s usually with the eye to a payoff without selling my soul in the process. We all sell our bodies in some way – you are selling clips, photos, audios – those are all parts of your body and it makes zero difference if they are naked or dressed. Those guys don’t see us as Goddesses no matter what they say or they’d behave a lot more respectful towards us, especially when we are not looking. No, they see us as their playthings, their enticements and internet whores who cater for a few bucks to their whims. I didn’t make the rules here, I am just calling it the way I see it. I know how actual slaves behave when they are actually serving a Lady they see as a superior Goddess, and this ain’t it online. What a joke.
I get told frequently that maybe if I would stop being such a hard ass and do a bit more free humiliation, put the $5.00 bitches more in the spotlight, do some money fan pictures etc for enticement I’d get more attention. Yup, I hear you loud and clear! I feel you darlings and damn my follower count would shoot up too and I could claim that I am an Internet Sensation…. PUKE! Seriously PUKE, because as fun as all that sounds guess what tons of Followers don’t mean shit. Most of them are freebie hounds, lookie loo’s, fellow women and oh yes retweet boys who aren’t spending a dime but are trying to make money off you.
Do you know why I do so little for free with fetishes and when I offer fetishes up it’s always with a Price Tag attached? Simple, because if they want to get off on my time and effort, I am going to get paid for it. It’s Commerce and as good as some freebie advertisement is from time to time, like a preview maybe here and there, you can actually advertise yourself right out of sales too.
I don’t participate in competitions either and other Venue sponsored things that are designed to drive the prices down because most guys, not all but most, will always buy the cheapest things they can get instead of paying for something that is fairly priced to the producer first. So when Venues are putting on their big Competitions when the base minimum price of sales content is almost insulting, I barely produce and when I produce I keep my prices regular. Why? Because the market is going to be even more saturated with “Dollar Store” priced items. Nothing wrong with that once in a while, basic economics tells you that sometimes you need to throw something really cheap out so people can get hooked on your products, but that is once in a while not all the time.
I tend to watch and I actually keep one hell of a track of what sells for me (remember just because something sells for one person doesn’t mean it will sell for you) personally and where I make sales at and where I just wasted my time and effort putting it up. You can see how some Venues are sliding more and more down, while others actually retain a certain amount of quality customers who have the financial ability to spend money on what they want.
The more you drive prices down on a Venue constantly the more you bring in the Bargain Shoppers, the low end consumers, etc. It’s not really that hard to understand and if a Company stops giving a damn about it’s Freelancers and Independent Contractors (which we girls are) the harder it gets to make money there.
Businesses will always be about the bottom line first and foremost, and if they can milk their workers then they don’t need to worry as much about the consumers. You really have to open your eyes and see it for what it is.
The good venues will not over the top restrict content to a point where you almost have to just talk about the Weather in order to produce something. They’ll stick within the letter of the law, but keep their own personal social opinions and moralities to them-selves, because they want to make money and remain relevant.
The good venues will do a lot of their own Advertisement as well because they are getting a cut (anywhere from 30% to 50%) of each service and products sold by their Independent Contractors. (That’s you and me). They are just as greedy as we are and if you are in business and not at least a little greedy then you need to get out. Give it away for free by all means, but don’t destroy the business for other people with your rock bottom thinking.
The good venues keep updating their IT stuff, make it possible for purchases and services to be sold, make sure that glitches are at a base minimum. No Venue is perfect, glitches happen, but you can tell which Venues address the problem rapidly, keep their Independent Contractors informed and handle it quickly and which pretty much spit into our faces and figure we don’t deserve to know. They’ll get around it to it when they are done dreaming up other ways to make business more ….. Nope I am going to stop there before I go off on a totally different rant.
Here is the thing, and I am just saying what a lot of people think and are too afraid to say out loud because it is the furthest thing from being arousing, most of US really want and need to be paid for our work and it is becoming increasingly more difficult because not only are the morality squadrons of the anti-adult leagues working against us, but because we are working against each other and ourselves too.
I am not talking about the Kumbajah Moments of Cyber Hugs and mutual admiration tweets (those are great from time to time, but in the long run the customers don’t pay attention to those that much either – those are purely for us so we don’t feel so damn alone). What I am talking about is the undermining of each other, the steep under pricing of products and services that make it a lot more difficult to keep the price ranges even at an average, because it teaches the consumer to expect low low prices from everyone. Doesn’t mean we all will cave on it and that there are no consumers who will pay more, there always will be, but it does cut in the income potential big time.
I find one thing beyond ironic in today’s online society. A woman being confident and demanding, even greedy is hot and gets guys supposedly off, but the moment she honestly says that she’s in it to win it, to make her money, to be paid for her attention and demands that this is honored, they suddenly all want to shrivel up. Fantasy is always better then reality – eh guys?
I love to write, but more and more Venues now make sales of written content a big waste of time for the Adult Industry. I used to do really good with selling written content and it was so much fun thinking up those fetish fantasies and fictional stories for you to devour after paying me a fair price. Now, not so much. I am actually considering just switching Genre and / or just writing more harder and edgier Fetish Fiction for Amazon Kindle sales then putting it up on well Niteflirt. I am just not ready to stop writing yet, because I love doing it. I am figuring that I can always audio record each Story and sell it on Clips4Sale. Oh I’ll put it up whenever TOS allows on Niteflirt too, but let’s face it I’ll sell 10 Copies of a product on Clips4Sale these days at the same price before I might sell one on Niteflirt. It’s just a different client base there and less advertisement from their end.
Honestly, and I am not putting Niteflirt down because I have been with them for a long time now and still feel a loyalty to them, I see it turning more and more into a Phone Platform for me only. They really make selling the type of Fetish Content I enjoy producing with the Topics I like touching on too impossible or flat out forbid it. I don’t mind it for calls in general, but when I produce content be that written or audio, I don’t want to be that restricted in my creativity and be that hobbled by someone else’s sensitivities. It’s Fetishes for crying out loud, they are supposed to push the sensitivity envelope to a point or I might as well write stories for Children instead and keep it sanitized with no sexual content at all.
I’ll give you a super example:
I ADORE Feeder / Feedee – Fat Pig – forced weight gain, forced feeding, and weight humiliation Fetish. I go the entire gamut on it and I love to make it twisted, wicked and at times dark erotic too. I never fully cross the lines into forbidden by law territory but I come close to the edge of what is allowed at times. I stop right at the edge of it, and that gives it it’s special brand of arousal. You can write a story in such a way that you never say it, but the reader can choose to push it over and put in the details we don’t say. Everyone is happy in that case.
On Niteflirt however I have to be very careful and be extremely cautious of just how far I go. You never know when someone buys it just to see if they can cause you problems, oh yes that’s a thing, don’t fool yourself.
So I keep them more towards the higher medium scorch level instead of going 5 Bells Alarm Scorch. That’s ok I don’t mind, it’s all good.
Yesterday I put out a brand new Audio in that category on both Niteflirt and Clips4Sale. Here is the content in question:
Wicked forced punishment feeding you into being a disgusting fat Pig! MP3
You wake up in my cage, stripped down nude and with your scrawny body shivering as I walk back and forth in front of it, taunting you, humiliating you and explaining to you how you ended up here. You made the mistake to have a big mouth and call me a “fat bitch” after I rejected your sexual advances.
Instead of my feelings being hurt and my self-esteem plummeting by your name calling, I am making you pay for it in a wicked and evil way that will change your life forever. I have decided to force feed you into becoming such a disgusting fat pig that your fat rolls will have fat rolls, and your flesh will force itself through the bars of my cage until you look like a pork sausage.
I am not going to feed you into demise, that wouldn’t be fun, you’ll suffer so much more once I have kept you for a year and set you free. Of course by then….
Debasing, humiliating, devious, revenge based forced weight gain and forced punishment feeding fetish fantasy of the darker variety. Get ready to turn into a disgusting fat hog – scrawny boy – I am ready to get MY pound of flesh lol.
Related Categories: MIND FUCK, GAINING WEIGHT, AUDIO ONLY, VERBAL HUMILIATION, WEIGHT HUMILIATION
Keywords: goddess bella donna, revenge forced feeding, forced to gain weight, punishment, wicked mindfuck, dark weight gain fantasy, caged and fed, twisted lesson, fat chick dishes payback, wicked feeder, scrawny male to fat pig
Price: $19.99 USD
Length: 22 minutes
Size: 21 MB
Ok, now let me talk out of school here.
They are both the same thing and they both have the exact same description, title and price.
On Clips4Sale I had the option to really add a lot of keywords that fit so consumers can find the product. On Niteflirt it was pretty much restricted to about 5 of them and still keep it realistic in fit. So that was the first difference.
On both Venues I put it up within about 15 minutes of one another and I also send out a notification of this new Product being available to my Newsletter / Mailing List. On Niteflirt (I keep it trimmed heavily and sort out the never buy a thing, don’t buy just call, and freebie hounds only as well there, which really reduces how many people I have on my lists) I send it out to 700 potential clients. On Clips4Sale for that particular Studio I have a total of 60 active potential clients on my list who have opted in to receive my mailers. That’s huge – the opting in – because that means they want to hear when I have something new coming out. Niteflirt doesn’t give the consumer that option, they get automatically added to my New Customer Lists if they click on a listing and favorite it, make a call to me, click on a PPV even if they don’t buy it, or purchase a piece of content. They have no choice if they want to be bothered or not, and that happens to them with each person they interact with as a potential client. So there are a lot of guys who either get pissed off, block you or don’t even read the mailers. Not that good.
Now to the bottom line. Within less then 1 hour I sold this item 2 times on Clips4Sale and haven’t even seen any interest in it on Niteflirt. Think about that, not only is the interested client pool different, but the options are somewhat restricted on Niteflirt which leads to less earning potential for content when you do Fetishes that are not the main stream, do to less marketing on their end and well a lot of other things. Let’s leave it at that.
This is not a lone example, but something I have found happening more and more frequently now. I’ll put something out on both Venues and it will sell on Clips4Sale, but not on Niteflirt for me.
Clips4Sale is also a lot less restrictive in top matter and how you can execute the Fetish then Niteflirt while still staying well within the laws. Which means for someone like me who is not just niched into the most popular fetishes that all too many women do these days, but who actually has a lot of fetishes she enjoys that have a smaller pool of producers as well as consumers (more niched and intimate), it makes a lot more sense to just put it out exclusively on Clips4Sale now.
I do clips from time to time, but with my traveling and now working outside with lots of Mosquitoes biting the hell out of me (not attractive) I produce mostly Audios and written content. So I can’t say it is because of clips selling better on a Venue that has clips sales down to an artform since that was their specialization.
These are the things that I watch, look for and yes pay attention to. I am a Business Woman when it comes to all of this and that means I am sorry but I am not going to blow sunshine up anybodies ass just to make things look honky dory.
Ok I think that is enough for today. Oh and look I just spend 45 minutes writing all of this and I wasn’t interrupted once by the phone ringing…. (private joke between us Phone Sex Operators – we know what that meant).
See you around darlings, and as much of a slap of reality and saying some things that we shouldn’t be talking about out loud, I hope it served to let you know that you are not alone out there. It is what it is, but if you really want to there are ways of paying attention and doing better. Don’t waste your time and energy on things that don’t work for your bottom line and find the ones that do.
Goddess Bella Donna
Oh the mystical humiliating Friend Zone that you guys have somehow managed to turn into something different and totally sexualized in your sweet if somewhat cum addled little minds.
I have to laugh so hard when I read or hear about the “Friend Zone” and the sexual torment it brings to you poor sweet darlings. The desperation you feel for her and the fantasies you conjure up around her, her with other men, and of course the explosive sexually charged way it would be if only she’d give you a chance to get into her panties.
Lordy be, you guys sure have an imagination to rival my own and I am not saying that part is a bad thing, because it sure makes me chuckle when you pay me on Niteflirt to tell me all your poor cock blocked woes, or is that pussy blocked I always mix those two up for some reason. No I am pretty sure it’s your cock she is blocking from getting into her.
Isn’t it funny how you always want what you can’t have? Human nature I guess, but the force of “woe is me she won’t fuck me” is really strong in you isn’t it buttercup?
Of course then on the other end of the stick are those among you guys who are constantly whining because I won’t let you be “my friend” which in your world seems to translate to “eligible for a booty call” and “free pussy for being a nice guy”.
Let me tell you a little bit something about the Friend Zone and just how lucky you would be for me to consider you my friend. Something most of you would never even achieve to begin with, because I am pretty darn picky of whom I befriend and allow that deeply into my confidence and into my life.
First of all the Friend Zone is not a “no-man’s land” where only the losers in the lottery of life are being delegated to, but a place of honor in my life because I only place people in it with whom I even feel a connection at all and enjoy being around. Translation – Losers may not apply, because I prefer intelligent, interesting, fun to talk to, and fun to hang out with people. I have yet to meet a person whom I consider a Loser that has any of those qualifications. I usually do an “about face” and walk away from them while leaving them standing there holding their dicks. You don’t even get into the friend zone.
Second – I actually spend time with those I consider friends and have many fun times with them. They get to know me on a level that you can’t even imagine and I them. There is pretty much nothing we can’t joke about and talk about, oh and if I consider you my friend I am very protective over you. So there is that.
Third – Most of the people who are lucky enough to be in MY Friend Zone or group of friends are actually women, couples and a very select few men whom I consider as something akin as my brothers. Neither of us see each other in a sexual way. Which means I often know and meet their Wife or Girlfriend as well. There is a measure of platonic love between us!
Fourth – I actually trust you! Oh boy that is a big one! There is very little I wouldn’t do for and give to my friends. To me friendship is something that endures through a lot of shit. My friends in general are really awesome people in their own that may like sex but actually have a lot of other interests aside from that. They are able to keep it in their pants or panties and don’t need to let the bird fly every few minutes.
Fifth – Friends help one another out. Not something I would ever do with you obviously.
Six – You know all those horny little Fetish Chats you constantly want for free and I make you pay me for? Yup I have them with a lot of my friends both male and female. You know why? Because I actually want to talk to them about it because they have something other then heavy panting and jerk off moves to offer to me. ALL of my actual friends know what I do and they actually respect me, unlike you who just wants an excuse to get off for free and thinks using me to do so is ok. Spoiler Alert – it isn’t.
Seven – My friends don’t want to fuck me either! They are attracted to me for something completely different and so am I to them. Oh and yes, we actually have had those conversations before too just to make sure we are all on the same page. There are no “hurt feelings” and “pining for the pussy” from my male friends. They aren’t desperate little bitch boys who can’t get a woman of their own.
If you haven’t figured it out yet, I hold my friends actually in pretty high regards. I respect them, care about them, even love them in a completely non-sexual way, and feel 150% comfortable around them. I am a cheerleader for their relationship with their special Lady not a threat to her. Imagine that, which means she can become my friend too and be comfortable with it. The Friend Zone is a No-pressure – keep the drama to a minimum – zone in my life. That is the Zone I go to when I want to be around someone I can just relax with and chill.
So don’t worry baby cakes, you are safe, I’ll never Friend Zone you, because Sugar Pie you really don’t qualify.
There see… problem solved. You are so very welcome. Anything else I can put into perspective for you BOY?
Goddess Bella Donna
Don’t confuse serving Me with fetishizing Me!
If you truly want to serve Me and be My slave
you got to get to know Me the person!
Do you see the picture and how blurry it is? I have chosen this particular image for a reason today. To me it illustrates what it’s like when someone who claims to want to serve me only cares about my kinky, fetish, how will it turn them on nature – aka fetishizing me.
They get a pretty good outline of me and can make out some of what I am like, but it’s at best blurry and they are missing some of the most important details that will allow them to actually understand the woman they are wishing to serve.
It’s enough to turn them on, give them a reason to desperately jerk off and pretend that they are in front of me as my slave, but that is all. In the end, they do not care enough to invest their time into learning about the non-fetish, non-kinky, non-adult-only aspects that are just as much a large part of my being. They are missing the big and most important picture. The human being who drives this kinky bus.
Now I want to be fair here, I try to be as fair as possible whenever I can, and bring up the point that in many cases online it is very hard for men to get to know the women behind the exalted Titles, because for whatever personal reasons (often safety) the majority of Mistresses do not share their vanilla life with the masses. That makes it hard for those rare men among you who want to have a deeper connection and understanding of the woman they admire and wish to serve to get to “know her”.
I also know from personal experience that most so called online slaves will run once the Mistress or Goddess is “demystified” and they realize that even so she stands above them, she is still a normal human being with flaws, feelings, worries, fears, quirks, and all the other fabulous stuff that comes with being a human being.
I am the first one to admit that women in general can be pretty darn quirky, complex as fuck, frustrating to try to figure out with our hormones swinging monthly, and hell even I think sometimes we are just this side of a little crazy. I’ve been alive and around way too long to buy into this “all women are perfect” BS that you keep either trying to feed yourself or are being spoon-fed. We are no more perfect then you are, we are just simply different and have things to offer which you are still having problems with being born male
I often think that what makes us appear “weak” are often times our biggest strength in the long run. WE have a unique approach in how we handle things and how we pick the moments when we will address certain things has always mystified men from the beginning of time.
Now I am one of those women who are not “just” a Mistress, but a motivational writer, an unlicensed life-coach, a mentor and many other things that require for me to be open about who and what I am as well. I am fortunate enough to not have to hide behind a facade to keep myself safe, I can’t be blackmailed by ignorant fools about being exposed to my family and friends or Boss – because first of all they all know what I do and I am my own Boss. I am not fearful of being looked down upon by people as immoral or broken that don’t even know me, nor any of the other million reasons why women keep themselves hidden and secret. I am an open book and I share what I am willing for you to know about me whenever I may choose.
Matter of fact, over the years I have had several different non-adult blogs and just recently felt led to begin another in which you can get to know me – not as a Mistress, FemDom or sexworker – but as just another normal everyday human being. The woman that is behind the title and this will give you a lot more insight into me and why I do things the way I do and think the way I think, then you’d ever get from this adult only blog..
When a male approaches me on Skype or any other option and claims he wants to serve me, I always ask him how he found me and if he bothered with researching me first. The majority of the time, at best they may have read one or two of my blog posts, and / or bought some of my fetish content for sale. That isn’t researching me and that is not taking the time to form a bigger picture about me to see if I am even the type of woman they could handle serving.
I always send them away with the following.
Unless you are just here to pay for a fetish session and then depart again, you need to put in some effort first and read up on me before approaching. I take a lot of time to allow you boys to see who I am and what I am about, this takes away the excuse of “can I get to know you first?” I already gave that to you before you ever asked. Now it is your turn to reach for it. Come back when you did so.
Take a guess of how many return. Maybe 1 or 2 out of 200. Why? Because it takes an actual submissive and slave minded soul to want to put that much work in first before it goes into what they want and are looking for. You darlings weed yourself out by being dishonest about what you are really looking for.
If you want to be my slave and serve me, then you need to be interested in me as a human being as well and get to know me on that end a little bit. You may find that I am too intense, too deep, too straight forward, and too filled with life-experiences then you can handle.
I am 47 years old, I would have had to live under a rock not to be that way. Which means that naturally I am looking for and am only accepting a submissive or slave who can deal with that and enjoys being controlled by a woman who is a lot more then just the sum of her body parts and fetishes.
Visit www.flawedtreasures.com and get to know Me the woman behind the title a little. Bookmark it, check back often because I’ll be writing there a lot more then on here. I am going to import some of my older post from other blogs as well so you can find them in one place.
Welcome to MY world, MY realm and MY life, because darlings they are all the same.
Goddess Bella Donna
The Internet has a Bot Fetish I think!
Automated Spiders crawling while human beings reading
becomes less frequent!
over the weekend I was thinking about the type of content I want to continue adding on my blog. I noticed myself that I really don’t blog as frequently or as in Fetish detail as I used to.
I check my traffic on this blog a few times a week and when I do I actually check to see if the traffic is of the human kind or the bot – spider – crawler kind. I found something rather interesting as I did so for the last roughly 3 months now.
Out of every 100 clicks and visitation to my blog – between 81 and 90 are bots. So that means that out of 100 clicks only between 10 to 19 visitors are actually human who are interested in reading what I have written. Let that sink in for a second fellow bloggers and especially fellow Content Providers who not only write about whatever comes to mind, but how also market your products via your blogs.
Now for those of you who haven’t been blogging for that long it doesn’t feel that surprising perhaps, but for someone who like myself who has been blogging since roughly 2005 and has had easily a couple hundred of various blogs over the years in all kinds of categories from regular family friendly to adult, this is a huge shift.
It used to be about 30 % bots to 70% human readership. Does that mean people are just getting too lazy to read? Are blogs becoming obsolete? Are we back to the Picture only marketing phase that require little to no thought? Or does our target audience – in my case males – get all of their fixes now online via Social Media for free and no longer need to actually read and think? Has the mind become a last frontier for fetishes in which the written word becomes the main drive to fantasy and is slowly becoming a wasteland?
Regardless of what the answer is on that one, one thing is for sure. It makes my motivation to talk about anything Fetish and Kink related decrease. As a writer I write for things to be read by human beings. That’s just natural.
If I just wanted to write for myself I could just put it in a Journal (the pen and paper kind) and never share a thought with you.
It does make you think, well at least it does me. How much is our world really changing and is it just a lack of interest in doing something that requires some effort, or are we dealing with a much bigger issue? Maybe literacy is the real issue here and the lack in education? Maybe it is that fetish topics which are at the same time educational are simply a turn off, because they require for the reader to look within and at times maybe even adjust their points of view a little.
Or, and that is a big “or”, it is that we have become so sensitive and politically correct now that it quiet literally has killed or is killing Fetishes as we continue on. I am not ruling this one out either.
Of course it could simply be that we human beings are now just getting too frustrated and scared about our future and what is to come. You’d have to be really foolish to not realize just how uncertain things are and have been for a very long time.
I try not to talk about politics online because I have found that politics always serve to upset people on either side and I am probably way too moderate for most. Hell I didn’t vote for either Hillary or Trump in the last elections simply because to me neither were a good option to pick from. I don’t care for extremes when it comes to things that will alter all of our life in the long run. I can see good and bad on both sides, and the idea that if you like something about one side or the other automatically making you anti whatever the opposing side has to say is just ridiculous.
Now of course I discuss politics and social justice as well as social economics in my private life. How can you not? It’s not like you can get away from it and it does effect everyone to some degree sooner or later. We are all interconnected with one another on some level, like it or not.
There you go a little insight on how I think on this broad spectrum and only because I am trying to point out that yes, just like you perhaps, I realize that there is a lot more at stake here then a dick getting hard and getting off.
Here is the thing so and this seems to be something that we overlook. We are not dead yet, we still have desires and needs of the carnal variety, and when it comes to fetishes and kinks, well there are some things that are to be taken into consideration always.
I want to start a new series of blog posts and those will be a bit different in a way, because I have decided to share some experiences from both sides of BDSM from the days when I had my formal training in real time. Literally coming from vanilla – fetish ignorant and being trained and educated from the bottom up.
Don’t get too excited so because I am not going to write them for horny young bucks but through my eyes, which literally goes a lot deeper then just the physical. I don’t switch and I don’t submit – those days are long gone, but I found that what I learned during those days was invaluable. Not just for me personally which it was, but in the sharing might actually show others that some reactions are not as unusual as you may think.
Maybe I am trying to bring a bit of humanity back into a robotic world where we stop feeling and just live on auto-pilot because it’ s just so much easier for many out there.
I do hope that it will be human readers rather then bots finding and taking something away from this.
The Internet may have a robot fetish – as in that is mostly what reads anymore and pays attention – but I still prefer the human interaction which is the only way to connect and remain connected.
Goddess Bella Donna
Is it really worth losing your sanity over?
Good morning boys and girls,
I finally made it up to my destination where I will be spending my time until September of this year. I am surrounded by nature everywhere I look and it is oh so peaceful. Just the way I like it.
Besides doing my bit of a summer job which I have committed to, it gives me time to sit back, reconnect with my inner balance and finally wrap my head around creating more content for you all to enjoy. That’s the good news and something I know I have not been doing a lot of as of late.
As I am sitting here having my first cup of coffee for the day, taking some quick morning calls on Niteflirt, and reading through Social Media Tweets and postings, I can’t help but wonder if the online rat race I am witnessing is really worth your sanity
It reminds me so much in a way of the rat race you run in high power jobs where the balance and sanity is often lost. Pushing things deeper and deeper into a hole you may not find your way out of again without selling your soul or your-self to the company store.
It’s all about competition, of nay-saying other people, of shade being thrown around and oh so many other truly mind-numbing things. I watch as oh so many of the females of the sex-industry claw each others virtual eyes out, attack each other on base of trying to look more powerful or hotter then the next, and honestly it just makes me sad.
I don’t have a dick, so I can’t talk for you males, but I would think that the majority of men get a bit sick of watching the stupid flowing past them as well. Oh sure there are enough guys out there who get off on seeing women clawing at each other and essentially putting on a virtual version of a cat-fight, but all in all is it really worth it to you?
I can’t help but wonder if there aren’t other people like me who literally get turned off by what they see to the point that feeling sexy and having those delicious wicked thoughts is the furthest thing from the mind.
The funny thing is that as always the more our venues of marketing get restricted and our ability to earn an income (bite me – that is exactly what we are trying to do – can we all please just drop the B S for 2 seconds here?) is being bitch slapped around by the powers that be, the meaner and shady it gets out there.
It is literally turning into a rat-race. Operative word here is RAT!
During my travels up to this location and even beforehand while I was getting ready for it, I was hardly able to get any work done. Time was not on my side. So when I finally did have a few minutes to log in and do my own marketing efforts, I was turned off and cold within mere seconds. The question of ….. “Is this really what we have all been reduced down to?” … kept floating around in my head.
Now I am not saying that this Industry has ever been all Kumbajah and sunshine and roses. Far from it. It just seems as if the more outside influences try to keep us from making a living in a professional manner and keeping with some sort of ethics at least, the more the women in the industry are becoming not just mean but downright obnoxious or should I say noxious in their behavior.
I watch Venues encouraging what I call the “Walmart” Syndrome. Mass amounts of super cheap content that you either agree to sell at lower then dirt prices and you’ll have to sell loads off just to make your bill money or just fail to make a living there. Call it forced under pricing and no matter what side of that debate you are on in the end it will not do any of us any good in the long run.
Again the Rat Race that is all about clawing your way to the top, trying to out do each other, without realizing that the next body that might get trampled on the way up could be yours.
Ask any person in any Industry who has made it to the top at any given point just to realize that being there is not all it is cracked up to be and that the cost of a little Ego and money often comes at the cost of your health, family and sanity.
Oh and what goes up, will come down. The Rat race never ends and now it starts a lot earlier on then it used to. I don’t know, but these days it just don’t seem worth it to me to participate in that. I find that just doing what I can and feeling “at ease” with myself is a lot more important to me the being able to claim the title of Queen Bitch out there. Maybe I am just showing my age with that statement, or maybe it’s just my personality. I never did want to become a Legend, I just wanted to live a good life, make enough money to be content and stress free (as much as it is possible), enjoy what I do and be able to look into the mirror at the end of the day.
Fortune and Fame are fickle things. Ever wonder if they are worth the price you have to pay for them on a personal level? I have and I do.
The thing is, you can never totally get away from it. Society won’t allow it. Not if you are online and making a living, but just how far you are willing to get sucked into it and chewed up emotionally as well as physically by it, well that is really up to you.
Don’t let it get to the point where you have to get drunk and / or high every day just to make it through another day. Don’t let it cost you what relationships you might have. I know right now you think – fuck that – money is more important, but there will come a point when you see it differently. You can’t keep putting your special people in your life as last resort thoughts and when I get around to you and expect them to remain.
Don’t let it turn you into someone that you won’t be able to live with being in the end. When it turns you into the type of person you loath yourself and finally realize that you loath them so much because they remind you of the person you have become, it’s a long hard road to come back from if you even can.
Don’t let it turn you into a plastic version of the wonderful human being you are dear ones.
Take it from someone who speaks from experience. It’s lonely in that rat race you are running, it’s riddled with fake friends, false hope, and when you make it to the top, it only satisfies you for a short while. Oh you’ll have money and lots of frenemies for a while, but when the next hot thing takes over (and they always do) and you slowly plateau out somewhere a little less in the spotlight, you’ll get to see what your 5 minutes of fame really cost you. It’s not worth it!
Success without retaining your integrity and humanity is worthless in the end. Make sure you know what it is you really want and then go for it. Don’t trample people on the way up there and stay as far away as you can from the shade that is thrown and the foolish cat-fighting that only serves to give broke guys amusement.
Most of all, be true to yourself. Don’t be afraid to evolve into your personal best possible self and that my precious ones isn’t depending on what society tells you it should be. That is fully on yourself.
Have a lovely day all.
You know where to find me if you want to talk to me. I’ll be available at Niteflirt off and on until this evening
Goddess Bella Donna
This entire time in the last week or while I was getting ready for my trip and then while being on the road I had this distinct feeling I was forgetting something.
You know the feeling I am talking about. There is something just out of reach that is niggling at you a bit, but you can’t fully figure it out? I knew there was something, but every single time I checked all the important things they all had been covered.
It wasn’t until today when I finally figured out while reading several freebie seeking and just attention whoring look at me emails what it was. I had forgotten to give a damn about you while going about my life and I suppose I figured that if you wanted my attention badly enough you’d just pick up the phone and call ME when I showed as available.
You see, those who are smart always know how to get my attention, especially when I am traveling and on the road. They know that while I am on the road I have no time at all for “I just want to be your friend” BS from guys who still haven’t figured out that if I want to have a male friend, I can just walk out the door in the real world and make a whole slew of them and that I am not one bit interested in the online version of a booty call.
By the way Ladies…. you are more in touch with the dating scene out there these days… do they still do such a thing as booty calls or is that trend over and so yesterday now too. Personally I never did the booty calls. Sorry but I am not interested in being any males fuck on speed dial and my pussy isn’t a drive-thru fast food joint either. So yeah, not really interested in all of that jazz, which is what the internet version of “can we just be friends” is when approaching a woman in the Adult Industry.
Trust me bunny turds, if I want you as a friend you’ll know it. It’ll happen organically and won’t be a 2 hour discussion with a memorandum and side quests attached to them. We won’t be passing notes either – with 2 little boxes on it that give me the choices if I like you or not. My School Days are long gone and over.
So where was I before I went off on a rant into the blue yonder about the down right stupidity of the intellectually challenged – look I have a dick hahaha wanna see? – online aspiring Darwin Award Candidates.
Ah yes, my forgetting to give a damn about whatever your problem is, was or will be unless you actually get your head screwed on right and try to get my attention the correct way.
By the way, if you were one of those shadow humpers that naturally ignored any and all opportunities to fund or sponsor my trip, don’t bother asking me for photos or acting as if you are one of my best boys, sissies, or gulp – clients – either. You are not, and since you decided to ignore an important opportunity to make Me very happy with you and just acted as if you didn’t even know about it, guess what you get treated now exactly how you deserve.
How is that? Oh I think you’ll figure it out soon enough. Money talks baby cakes and Bullshit walks or gets ignored in this case. No whining allowed either. You made a grown up choice there buttercup, now you get to deal with grow up consequences.
Oh and those lovely direct call and purchase options are gone now too again. Why? Figure it out! I am really getting tired of chewing it all out for you these days.
I’ll share some photos of my current location and where I’ll be over the next few months with those who actually contributed to my travel fund privately. I see no reason to give you something so beautiful to enjoy when you didn’t want to be a part of it when money was involved. Sorry puppets. Too bad so sad. Besides the Country side doesn’t have any tits, ass, cunt or dick hanging around anyways, so I am sure it wouldn’t interest most of you. I do see some nice peaks so….
Want my attention – phone lines are on, tributes can be made to firstname.lastname@example.org if you want an email chat or just want to be noticed, and you can always go and get your quick fix by just buying content.
Goddess Bella Donna
It’s Sunday and that means some across the board updates from the world and life of Goddess Bella Donna.
Consider it my thinking out loud in written format. Something that might be of interest to those among you who actually enjoy getting to now me as a person.
Real time session link in the menu will be removed today since I am going back on the road again for a bit and I am not going to have the time to make myself available for real time while I am in Susanville besides maybe, and that is a big maybe, for very generous and special already serving boys.
Since I haven’t been to Susanville before I need to figure the place out first, get a feel of it etc. I am actually really excited about getting back on the road again. 2 months (I think it has been 2 months already – I lose track of time) in Las Vegas was more than enough for me to be ready to get out of here again. It’s great for a visit, but it’s just not my happy place.
Since I have been here I witnessed a fatal stabbing, several car crashes, domestic violence going lethal, a fire on the top of a Casino Roof top and just the usual bad attitudes of people who are living in a major Metropolitan City. I don’t drink and I don’t gamble, so it holds little appeal for me in the long run.
A lot of the cool little shops I used to frequent when living here are now closed down and gone as well. Over the many years that I used to live here I had come to think of this place as a highly convenient City to live in (Shops, Restaurants, etc all at your fingertips and open late), but as far as human interaction it is a rather soulless place to be.
I did have the pleasure however to reconnect with a good friend here and spend a few hours with him, as well as take a pro-domination session with a wonderful boy with whom I have had several before and had formed a connection with over the years. It was great to see how far he progressed in his personal development since I last seen him and to explore our mutual fetish / kink enjoyment further under my control.
I am not too proud to admit that among the many people I have seen over the years for real time sessions on a professional level he is easily one of my favorites. We always have a great time together and that is what matters.
My travel fund is still $250 short from the “safe zone” of $1000 that I have set to make sure I don’t run into financial stress on the way up there. I am planning on making the trip slowly over several days. The RV still has a couple of repairs that need to get done in time and this is a way of assuring I don’t aggravate it to the point that they become a primary must do like yesterday repair. Gypsy – the nickname I have given my RV – is just like Me. Neither of us are spring chickens anymore and sometimes you just have to give us older gals some extra love and time to get things done in a safe and pleasant to us manner. It’s oh so worth it in my books too, besides it gives me an excuse to enjoy the journey instead of turning it into another rat race.
I was going to leave on May 1st but the road is calling to me strongly already so I am batting the idea of Wednesday April 26th or Thursday April 27th around instead. Depending on if I get all the last minute errands done ahead of time before I turn the key.
In the meantime I have filmed and audio recorded several new pieces of content which I have released for sale at Niteflirt: https://www.niteflirt.com/GoddessBellaDonna#goodies as well as at my various Clips4Sale Studios: https://clips4sale.com/store/16963, https://clips4sale.com/97505, and https://clips4sale.com/47343.
If you haven’t checked lately to see what is new, now is a good time to do so.
I have checked into opening a Studio with Iwantclips but have decided against it because of their “forbidden” content rules. They seem to be on par with Niteflirt who recently restricted their TOS even further and since I enjoy various fetishes that they are not ok with I decided it would just be a waste of time for me to do. Especially since they are still permitted via Clips4Sale and of course once the last few wrinkles are ironed out I can offer them via my direct purchase option.
That is something that actually surprises me. So many of you are always complaining how you prefer direct payment options which are discreet but then when you get them offered to you, you are not willing to use them. Seems like yet another excuse and contradiction to me. Something to really ponder.
Which brings me to something else which has been really strongly on my mind lately. Human nature – yes this is something which never fails to make me ponder and observe just how truly hypocritical and “false” we humans actually are. So often I see something proclaimed loudly by groups of people only to see the complete opposite being enacted. I find it amusing how we are expected to stand behind and be supportive of certain things which have been turned into movements, but if it is just an every day person who doesn’t fall into the movements of the day that person is left by the wayside and ignored. It really does show the true sense of what human kind is like.
Luckily for me, I have the great pleasure to keep myself balanced out by communicating with so many different people from across the various races and backgrounds in real life while on my travels, and I have found that there you find a very different mindset then what you have thrown into your face online.
I often wonder and have discussed this privately with a wonderful fellow Lady from across the pond – the charming yet hardcore Lifestyle / Professional Mistress The demanding Dutchess – if this is simply a sign of just how far we are removed from reality online and the false security we feel when we are nothing but an avatar to other people.
I have had the great pleasure to have gotten to know her now over several private Skype Conversation and have come to know a very witty, charming, highly approachable and extremely spiritual no-nonsense Lady of Power whom I am glad to call my friend and a “sister from another Mister”.
I often have to chuckle when I see her tweets and know just how “offended” and “taken aback by her bluntness” as well as “unrelenting verbal asskicking” she dishes out to you so many of you can be. I know very well that she is someone who scares you lesser beings to no end, and I pity you for your fear of actual dominance and discipline that is based in an old school real time foundation. You are all missing out so much, because you’ll never get to know this Treasure among US LADIES who take firm but caring control over those who serve US properly.
In appearance we are like night and day, but it is refreshing to know just how much we have in common on a personal as well as dominant base. For those of you in the UK I can only say…. If you are interested in serving an extremely skilled and unrelentingly powerful Lady you may want to approach HER, just make sure you bring your best manners and remember that HER TIME is VALUABLE.
As I said however, yes there is a wide and deep difference in what is being fed into us online constantly and what I am fortunate enough to witness in real time as I travel into the smaller Towns and Cities. You’d be surprised just how easy it is to make someones day there and how open they are to finding things that connect us rather then separate us.
For me on a personal base I have had very little hatred brought against me on my travels for being the kinky, fetish loving and strict disciplinarian Domme I am. If anything it has opened up some very curious and delightful questions from what we term vanilla folks. Many of them much older than me even.
I have shared meals with people from so many different walks of life, backgrounds, religious believes, race, gender and more without that ever having been a cause for anger, hatred and separation. If anything it opened up topics of debate, questions and answers over a good meal or a glass of wine / cup of coffee (in my case). A way of learning from one another and seeking to understand one another without the foolish prejudice that is so often found online.
I don’t know if it is just that RVers already share a more open nature since we are nomadic souls, or if it is just because we are more used to reserve judgement for character rather then outward appearances, but we tend to see each other as human beings first and foremost rather then “groups” of people.
I have found that the further you get away from the Metropolitan Cities the more you rediscover the heart of the people who toil away daily in order to make a living and survive. A lot of people who are not RVers are the same way.
Unless someone actually wants to get to know you, they rarely really care about what or who you are. There is a spirit of live and let live as long as you don’t force yourself on them. That seems to be a big problem in today’s society I see (online and in the big cities). We assume that everyone needs to “see us” and not just tolerate but “praise us” for being the person we are. We assume that people actually spend all day long caring about what it is we do, who we are, what we look like, what swings between our legs or doesn’t, and even more so disturbingly perhaps who we want to fuck. Honestly, most people in real life don’t give a hoot about that until you force it on them or they choose to become something more then just ships passing in the night with you.
Most people really just want to go about their day, live a reasonably good life and enjoy the company of other nice people. That is a fact that so many folks seem to miss.
Online we get so “caught up” in “stereotypes” of what is assumed someone is like, that we miss one little fact. Most people aren’t that way. There are pockets and in the big scheme of things handfuls of jerks out there who really need an attitude adjustment in a big way, but the large majority of people that I met at least are pretty decent folks who worry about their own issues and just want to have a good day.
I want to share a clip from Youtube here that many of you online will find “offensive at first” but I want you to consider that this is what you want to turn it into. Let me tell you again, it’s far from the norm.
The point is don’t try to be a stereotype if you don’t want to be treated like one. It’s how we present ourselves is how we will be treated. Sorry but that is what it’s like in the real world.
Oh and when people are bigots, because yes they do exist on all sides sadly – like I said the handfuls and pockets of miserable dipshits, you can always snap your fingers to this snappy little tune and just walk away laughing while leaving them standing there in their own misery. You don’t have to engage them and waste your energy on people who are not worth your time.
You are welcome. If you can’t walk away laughing with this song in your head when you meet one of them, then you need to recover your sense of self and sense of humor. Laugh at ’em, people that are miserable hate it when you are happy and can’t be made miserable by their attitude.
Ok that was enough. I think I’ll leave it here.
You have a choice just like I do. What are you going to do with your life? Get caught up in someone else “thinking” or go out there and live your life with a spirit of exploration and finding the good people who I promise you are out there a lot more then the asshats that seem to get all the attention online and in the media.
Wish me luck on my upcoming travels. Who knows, maybe one of these day you get to meet Me in person and have a meal with me. I wonder just how many of you would have your illusions about me shattered if you listened to haters on social media who never even met me.
Goddess Bella Donna
My perfectly imperfect freestyle filming style
You can’t script life – so why should I script My clips?
I thought it would be fun to talk a little about My particular filming style and why I prefer to do what I call “perfectly imperfect freestyle” filming for my clips. It’s something that I have done pretty much from the beginning and even as my equipment has improved over the years I have filmed now, my outlook on it has not changed.
When I decide to film and get ready – hair, ,makeup, nails, getting dressed etc. – I honestly have no idea yet what I am going to produce that day. All I know is that I am going to produce several clips in various fetishes for my various Studios. That’s it. I don’t script ahead of time and I don’t narrow my creative ideas down either.
Once I am ready I set up my Webcam, do a test clip to check visual and sound, and then allow the muse to move me.
What you see on the clip and the words I say are all happening organically at that very moment. I allow my mind to open itself up to possibilities and then give it free reign. I film what is fun to do and feels good at that moment to Me.
I know, this may be disappointing to a lot of you boys out there, who are so used to being the focal point in what so many of us Ladies film, but you are honestly just the happy lucky recipients if you spend the money of My having fun with a Fetish I like to personally indulge in.
As I film a clip it is always Me to you. Meaning I “speak to the lucky boy or sissy” who spend the money in order to receive the product that I have created.
In my minds eye I picture a submissive pet either standing, sitting or kneeling in front of Me. I have done so many real time sessions in my time that it is extremely easy for me to picture the reactions a sub might have when I tease, deny, scold, give my orders, and discipline. I can literally see physical reactions to it in my mind – body and facial – and I react to it in the clip I am filming as if I am responding to it. That allows me to give that intimate feeling of a real time session happening with you at that moment.
When I film educational clips or “group setting clips” like my Satanic Reverend style Sermons I picture myself giving a sermon or a “lecture” in a public real life group setting. Since I have done talks before in small public settings and given workshops for couples as well, it is again something that I can recall to mind, picture, and react to.
Once my mind has settled on the fetish topics – I rarely only cover one at a time, since in my real time sessions I always combine various fetishes and kinks – I simply do what I would during a real time session as well. I simply allow it to flow and unfold.
You can’t script real life down to the T. It’s impossible. There is always something going to happen that wasn’t planned or unforeseen. You are trying to be stern and suddenly your nose starts itching. Your necklace is crooked and you don’t notice it. You can’t spit a word out right for some reason. There is a background noise right outside your door or the phone rings. You are inhaling and suddenly your sub makes a face and you are laugh-coughing because it goes down wrong. A lot of different things can happen and will.
Most people will edit those out in order to produce and present a perfectly flawless product to their fans. I don’t, I leave those little real life happenings in, because I want YOU to get the real time feel and experience. In real life I couldn’t undo it either. Once it happened it is done. No do overs or take backs.
I think of it as perfectly imperfect freestyle. Real life captured on film. Goddess as she lives and breathes, no censorship or editing required. As long as the picture is clear and the sound is good, I usually just put my copyright in, website links and My name in various spots in the clip, and I am ready to release it.
Since I film “solo girl” style – no sub with Me since I am putting you through your paces – I can focus on just myself being clearly visible and the view point I want you to have.
The most difficult thing to get over at times is to see yourself on film to be honest. I had to learn not to be critical of myself and how I look. The camera will always throw some shadows in your face, add some weight to you, and in my case I have this stubborn lock of hair that is always guaranteed to get out of place and in my way.
Filming raw like this requires a lot of self-confidence and an attitude of – If you don’t like the way I do this, the way I look, the way I sound etc… – exit stage left. It’s the same attitude I have with real time and online slaves, subs etc.
Let’s get really realistic for a second. No matter who you are, you are not going to be everyone’s taste. So to drive yourself nuts over “those guys might not liking you” is ridiculous. If they don’t they go somewhere else and another lucky guy will take their place.
I am 47 years old now, have zero surgical enhancements on my body, weigh 246 – 250 lbs depending on that time of the month, have a swayback that will naturally push my belly out further to the front, and yes I have some laughter lines and wrinkles around my eyes. I am a regular every day woman who loves what she does and enjoys sharing it with those who can afford to pay for MY work and products.
If you want perfection in filming there are thousands of producers out there who will cut and edit a clip down until it is nothing more than a stage production. It’s perfect for those who want the illusion of perfection in their fetish pornography.
Me? Well I bring a dose of “real life” to you and allow you into MY life for that span of time. What you see on film with me is what you’d see during a real time Session when you kneel to Me in person. I am not one bit different on film then I am in real life. I don’t put on a “show” and I don’t perform a “persona”.
I am just Me… – Goddess Bella Donna – which means sometimes I am silly, sometimes I am cruel, sometimes I am mean, sometimes I am sensual, sometimes I switch attitudes in the middle because you “misbehaved” etc. Real personality showing through.
I don’t have a big studio to film in and I no longer have my in-house dungeon space the way I used to. So this gives you more of a feel to as if you actually came to visit me in my RV or maybe I took you on the road with me.
Now not all of my clips are purely fetish and FemDom either. I enjoy spinning erotic wicked tales as well and give a nod to my writers side. There I take you “back” or “into the future” of what your life might look like under my control or the control of wicked forces. You can see me smirk or my eyes light up in laughter as I picture it too.
I like sharing that bit of mental intimacy with you and that is something that if I was to edit or script would be lost. It’s the spontaneous unfolding of my wicked mind.
To me filming has to be fun for Me or it is not worth doing. I share a special part of Me in those clips and as I always say — “You can either appreciate Me for it or go your way!” I am perfectly imperfect in every way and that is what makes ME a true Goddess of duality. Perfectly embracing of herself and accepting of the fact that you are human too and flawed in those delicious ways.
Goddess Bella Donna